Life Blog

checking things off my list

Since I started work at KT, I completely abandoned this blog. I have been thinking about coming back to it time to time, but somehow I didn't do it. While so many things happened. I want to make it a daily practice now to just write, even if I feel uninspire to write. But just so many things have happened and all my wishes kind of came true, and I learned a lot of lessons. At the moment I am slowly rebuilding life. But come to think of it the fact I abandoned this blog and also my bullet journal is quite telling. I guess I kind of signed off from taking charge of my life. At the same time I kind of let life happen to me. And in that way things just manifested.

Back in March, I was trying to manifest 'security'. That's how I came to manifest my seemingly secure corporate job in UIUX in AI, and I got pregnant, chemical miscarriage, and got pregnant again. I also manifested my husband's job. But here is the thing, security in itself is a false notion. I learned that the hard way, because the job was such a horrible experience, that I got suspended injustly, and even got reassigned to a department that has nothing to do with design. But during the process, I kind of figured, that I don't care. I didn't feel like fighting for the job, even though it was completely false and injust accusations. Yes I was upset at first, but once I secured maternaty leave, and don't have to go to the office anymore, I felt like this place is just not worth it.

Let's see, some other things on my mind: I want to start small software projects, and see where it might end up. I want to draw and make children's books. Also teaching watercolor, and I want to start a studio that really focus on making, form, and experimentation with form with practical applications to branding but also purly as artwork.Ultimately I would want a studio space, but I just got a new monitor and a desk setup, so its fine for now. I will think about what I want specifically.

I want to be inspired, energetic! make a lot of things. interesting things visually!